Nothing Matters When Only One Thing Does

Have u ever looked backed and wondered why some things that were so significant once in our lives, now seems so trivial at date, how people, events are just like passing clouds, or more accurately clouds that have passed, condensed and pelted out rain....Relationships, fights, grudges all seem so childish and certain things leave us wondering, why on earth did we do/say that??!!! The people I've loved were amazing people, nice guys that I can't really find fault with, but now I can't even remember what is it that I loved in the first place. U can't say that to someone, it's just plain mean, silence speaks louder, but does it speak too loud, I wonder??

Sometimes it is so easy to point fingers and say ,oh my god, look at him/she, he/she is so useless, he/she is a flirt and rarely we see our reflection sniggering and calling us a big fat hypocrite...I always thought that it's ridiculous, how can one expect not be judged and why we are preached to not judge the other, but I guess they say so ,so one day all those abuse we hurl at others don't come back and hit us flat at the face like a saucer that defied the(1st law of thermodynamics)i.e. the law of conservation of energy with a higher momentum!

How it hurts to realise the words uttered by one was actually a far cry from the greatness of the person itself. We all get agitated when people argue with us that we tend to argue back (with basis or without basis) for no reason instinctively rather than sit back and just hear them out....How many of us reply 'whatever', 'go to hell', 'fine’, ‘shut up' when friends suddenly lash out rather than asking 'why do u say that' as a first response....?

It's also weird that we can get angry for no particular reason and are not willing to talk things out with our parents/husband when they say something we find offensive but we are more than willing to do so in a same scenario with a prospective partner….Is it because we value the latter more, or because we take the former for granted, since they will always be there for us and we fear the latter might leave us.? Fear of loss is such a compelling force....or is it love in a different degree? I still haven't worked that out yet myself.

Sometimes we are so engrossed in covering up our faults, fearing how others would judge us that we fail to realise that we might manage to muffle the sound of our mistakes, but never the trail of footsteps that leads towards it. Humans have this exceptional capabilities of sniffing out other people’s mistakes, that we don’t smell our own poop...I belong in this canine unit too.

I still haven't figured out whether it's just better to keep things that are personal or share it with friends and people we love. But u know what's the problem with sharing, it's like seeding too many downloaders and less uploaders ...Too many people who would just spread the gossip around, than those who would actually give helpful input.

I just hope that when I fall, I can bounce back higher, as long there aren't people who rather weigh me down with comments like 'I can't believe u did that’, ‘Hah! serves u right' or ' What goes around comes around' or ‘I told you so’ kind of talk. Do I know what I am doing, hmm maybe not, but I plan to find out on my way ,If I stumble, I'll pick myself up, brush of the hurt and retrace my steps. If I need hoisting, I'll send an SOS, and I know who will be there for me......